On the first Saturday night of April 2011 i find myself indoors as i did on the first friday of April 2011 and for me, that's not a bad thing, it's kind of a good thing due to a busy week that's just passed me by. As i write this blog entry which is written purely on the spur of the moment whilst i idle on facebook and play f1 2010 at 12.30am i find myself thinking, as i did during the previous night, of 2 questions...1 is Why? and the other is How?
Now i don't mean why am i indoors or how am i not out on the lash, i mean in a deeper way. I ask these questions both personally and professionally, Why and How? For example, professionally i think to myself, why am i in the position i am in (which isn't that bad) and how can i make it better? To some that answer may be simple but for me it's a bit more difficult to come up with answers. Now of course there are the obvious answers like enhancing your skill set in certain areas and that, but to myself i always think...Why? and How?
Now, personally (which is probably the more interesting) i ask the same 2 questions but just relating to different subject matter. Now, they Why? relates to being single, reason being is that sometimes single life does have it's lonely times, even though i am a man who enjoys his own company, free to fart, cuss and talk to myself (or the tv if i'm watching football) and just generally be around his own thoughts, but the Why? pertains to singledom (if thats even a word) but also to many other things such as why...have i been a little unlucky with injury? Am i just prone to it or is it my body's way of telling me to ease up on certain things or not ignore warning signs? Or is it just progression of self in learning the limitations of my body? The why questions i ask are not me feeling sorry for myself, far from it, but just a way of me trying to get to know me, myself, and my Straight Shootin' I, that bit better whilst i continue on this road of life that (to quote myself) has many twists and turns, and many lessons that must be learned. Now, onto the personal how. To me, the personal version of my how can encompass a few things. How can i remedy injuries? Healing, and by healing i mean strengthening and easing off sometimes. In life i feel that a lot of times it's easier to burn the candle at both ends, rather than sit back for a minute after something has happened, take stock, and then move on. In the world we live in that is driven by financial greed for the most part, and a constant need to do things faster and faster no matter what the cost, i think it's important to analyze myself and think, How? How can i slow things down to my pace and perfect a craft, or a video or a relationship or whatever the case may be. Sometimes it's nice just to take a break and think...Why am i moving so fast or wanting to move so fast? Is it to keep up with others, with myself or is there a reason at all? Why...would i want to be in a relationship when i'm busy and friendship suits me well at the moment, because friendship for me is born out of choice, whereas in my last relationship certain things were happening due to necessity? How? How can i slow things down to my pace or at least a pace that can be negotiated a bit easier? By being a bit more realistic with timelines and targets and again, stopping, taking stock and taking time to do things. Pressure does force mistakes and so does rushing things so i'll end this somewhat random blog entry by saying this, In life, sometimes you have to stop, pause and take a look around you and see the beautiful things in your life as well as the ugly. Life is all about the rough and the smooth, but when things get too much for you, don't be afraid or embarassed to say...I need help, or I need a break or i need a rest.
I've been Straight Shootin' LJA & thats my opinion
Be honest, Be vocal, Have an opinion, Make your voice heard – The Straight Shootin’ Mantra (Cos suckas gots 2 kno)
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